After having weeks of surging energy, boundless creativity and unimaginable joy, I woke up to a crashed day. I haven't felt so behind and run down in a long time. I keep grasping for the little energy and wakefulness left around here somewhere but there's nothing within my reach.
I should've known this honeymoon phase of my pregnancy wouldn't last forever but still, I assumed it would last longer than just 3 weeks. Oh well. There's always tomorrow. Maybe today was just a foretaste of the glorious 3rd trimester.
This morning started normal. Landon came into bed and we snuggled for a little while and then he got up and got some paper and little tiny folding scissors and brought them back to bed with me. He started cutting various snips of paper as he maneuvered his thumb and finger in the little scissor handle.
I wasn't too worried about the mess: what's a little paper?
Then, another idea must've hit his little brain because he disappeared and then returned with a comb and preceded to want to comb my hair. He carefully sauntered up to the bed and told me he needed my hair.
I willingly surrendered my locks of hair, basking in the prospect of someone playing with my hair. I LOVE that feeling and I rarely get to experience it.
I happened to glance at him as I tossed my hair over and I noticed the very tips of those tiny thread scissors peering secretly out of his chubby little hand.
"I'm going to do hair cutting, Mom," he said, as if it was a productive art project.
Needless to say, I confiscated the scissors and made sure he had no other means of hair cutlery available as he stood above my head and my vulnerable tresses of hair.
After that, the day held one big threat after another. None were after my hair, thankfully, but it still evolved into a rather discouraging and worthless day. Everything I set out to do, only resulted in making a huge extra task to get done. Eventually, I was afraid to get anything done. By lunch time, I was ready to pull my hair out but thought better of it when I remembered how close I had come to losing it all earlier today.
I thought to myself as I waded through piles of newspaper, clean dishes and dirty dishes, an unorganized kitchen and a little boy getting potty trained, that I think it would be wise for me to just quit trying to get anything done. The more I get done, the more I have to do. I felt like I was on a treadmill and not gaining miles but still running as fast as I could. I know it's bad to "give up" but the reason I wanted to give up was so that at least I could say I did something today.
Finally, I got my morning coffee at around 4:30 this afternoon and sat down and surfed through my usual homemaking blogs. As should be expected, one site after another held all the lofty things those virtuous wives had accomplished in just short amounts of time. Not just your everyday tasks either -- serious organization, craft projects, sewing items, fancy meals rich with nutrition, major cleaning and redecorating, etc.
And here I felt blessed to get my dishwasher loaded today and could still hear the glories ringing from those dirty dishes as they sang songs of praise to me for finishing my work with them. How I longed to hear more works praising me but that is just not my lot in life today.
I thought to myself as I searched their sites and coveted over their pictures of befores and afters, how come I always get stuck with just before pictures? By the time I could take after pictures, there's hardly any way you could tell I accomplished anything worth taking a picture of. By then, the room is ready for another before picture.
Day after day I visit these blogs and notice their consistent and steady virtuous spirit. Everyday holds abundance accomplishments and every tomorrow is guaranteed complete success. Maybe if I had a blog devoted to such goals as theirs, I'd be on the right track too and could avoid crash days like today. That's what I need: a blog entitled, "Her Praising Works."
As I searched on the last recipe site for the day, I wondered why I was even there considering I needed no meal ideas for tonight: we're having eggs and bacon. Simple as that. I figured if there's anything worth accomplishing today, it would be supper. So, I aimed low and hit right on the target. No big meal prep, no fuss and no frill. But we'll eat good and come away full and I'll feel like I did accomplish at least one thing today besides giving up.
Thursday, January 25, 2007
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Court, I loved reading this post, but please don't feel bad. Trust me, we ALL have days where we feel like we didn't get anything done!! It's so easy to have a good day and blog all about it (with pictures, of course) and then on the not-so-good days, just, ummm... make something up. ;) Kidding! I just link to someone else's post in that case. At any rate, you're doing the best you can with YOUR family and YOUR home!
It's funny, because this week I really have felt as though I got very little accomplished and had so many things scheduled that I couldn't "plan" some projects for the challenges. :) If it's any consolation, I usually plan my blog posts a day (or more) ahead. I am NOT good at spur-of-the-moment blogging. I mean, I have KIDS!! lol ;) I also often have bloggy thoughts swirling around in my head, and I write down a simple outline for a post before I ever get on the computer. Then when I go to write, it's much easier.
Anyway, just wanted to encourage you a little. :) I loved your blog and appreciate the things you share. In fact, I think I'll link to this. ;)
So, does that mean today wasn't all that great for you either Tammy, since you're linking to my blog?! Just kidding. I had to catch you on that honest confession you made there.
I know we all have harder days but sometimes when we're in the thick of one, we forget that most (if not ALL) moms and wives have days like this too. Thanks for the encouragement. I think my priority list a lot of times isn't listed with priorities but rather with preferences of what "should" get done in a day.
Oh, and btw... yours was the recipe blog I was talking about in my blog.:) You always inspire me on some good idea for a meal or baking project but today, I chose to be uninspired. Tomorrow I'll be back and perhaps I'll zero in on a nice, fancy supper.
Thanks for the tips on blogging. That's a good idea to do an outline like that. I had just thought of that today after I wrote this blog but then had to wonder when I'd have the time to take a pen and paper and jot down the idea. LOL But, if you can do it, I can too.
Thanks again for the encouragment, Tammy!
sometimes even nannies have days like that ;)
Talking about before and after pictures gave me a really good idea... You can save on the time it takes to do one or the other by taking a picture of your dishwasher after you empty it, and before you fill it back up. Post that on your blog, and there's a post for you :).
Need your nanny again??? xsmoochesx
I'm guilty of lots of before-and-after photos because people like reading them. Believe me, there is nothing more motivating than the embarassment of a reader emailing you to ask when the "after" will be published!
I've learned to grab the camera whenever I begin a project and keep snapping shots as we go. Now I don't post the "before" until the "after" is complete. :)
Those are both good ideas, Britt and Meredith. The empty dishwasher picture is very ideal. I'll have to try that. :) What successful proof that a job was well done.
As for posting befores AFTER the afters have been taken and the task is complete, I think that's a good rule of thumb to follow. Then you don't put yourself through unnecessary humility and frustration and you don't cause over anticipation on a reader's part. Very good pointers, gals!
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